{ Dear Diary }

hi. sorrie havent been blogging. not in the mood to do so. feeling kinda down. dread teaching tuitions nowadays. i feel useless. their grades are deteriorating. and i'm kinda blamed for it. what can i do man? i think their mum's not happy bout it oso. i think i'd better quit teaching them. let someone more resourceful teach them.. and also someone who can handle them better.

took leave for 2 days from work. intended to go survey for wedding stuff. but definitely not today. just not in the mood. still worried bout sum stuff. maybe tmr lah. wif nash and meya.

dunno what else to crap abt. take care.

i miss u.

beautiful DrEaMs @ 1:59:00 pm

i've just received an email from a friend.. someone who holds a dearly place in my heart.. i miss this friend of mine.. and when i read her email.. i cried.. my heart felt so wrenched at what she said.. i dunno what problems she has now in her life but she's becoming very distant..

but what i can say is.. my friend, if u r reading this, pls.. dont keep all the burden to urself.. i'm alwiz here for u and u noe dat rite?? keeping it to urself is not healthy.. and i noe that ur past still sorta haunts u now.. but its not good to continue to dwell in the past.. what past is past.. just forget bout it.. dont bother thinking bout them anymore darling.. it wont help.. in fact, the more u dwell in it, the more hurt it will bring u.. pls.. for the sake of ur well-being, pls just forget bout them.. i noe its hard but u haf me.. u haf ur other frens who will be there for u.. i noe i'm not fit to arrange ur life for u... but the first step outta this depression is to walk away from ur past..

i've lost a precious fren before and i think u noe dat too.. even tho on the exterior i may seem stronger, but i cant afford another loss.. and if i lost u, my life will crumble.. yes.. even tho i'm happy wif shahrul right now, but its different.. one part of my life will totally change..

i noe ur depressed right now and u might think dat there's noone who will be there for u but ur wrong.. i'll alwiz be there for u.. and i'll pray that one day u'll get out of this unscathe ok?? and i want u to be part of my wedding too.. its definitely gonna be more memorable wif u around darling..

just take care.. and if u really need anything, u noe i'll be just a short call or sms away ok?? i love you and miss u so.. *hugs*

Lots of love and missing u deeply,
Raudah

beautiful DrEaMs @ 8:29:00 pm

a shout out to my friend Suriyana... Selamat Bertunang!! sorrie beb couldnt stay long.. had to go to anudder place lah..

today i'm lazy to elaborate long cos i'm tired.. so i'm just gonna make it short and sweet.. went out wif dear to go to Suriyana's place first.. met shub and esah there.. after makan, took a few pics and signed the guestbook.. got stuck in the room cos the guys side were already there so had to wait till the speech by both sides are finished.. left ard 3.45pm..

next stop, Kallang Bahru.. dear's colleague's sista's wedding.. fuhhhh.. panjang betul nak sebut.. and stayed there for only bout 1/2 hour.. reached home ard 5..

pics are already uploaded below.. sorrie u guys haf to tolerate wif me.. hahaha.. i realised my previous posts had tons of pics! *grins* ok u peeps take care.. bubbyes!!

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:18:00 pm

the love of my life..

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:09:00 pm

OK guys, i'd like to introduce to u our instructor for today.. Mr Ahmad Shahrul..

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:09:00 pm

The instructor also said, "The happier u r when u exercise, the more weight u'll lose... " so, SMILE!!

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:08:00 pm

the senget girl in her senget world

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:07:00 pm

the only thing i hate bout this pic is.... MY EYEBAGS!! arghhhh!

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:06:00 pm

anyone looking for a secret agent??

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:06:00 pm

eh cepat main kompang! mak datin dah sampai!!

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:06:00 pm

this is wat u get when an unofficial photographer takes ur picture.. hahaha..

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:05:00 pm

hahaha.. candid!! tue lahhh.. sapa suruh tak tgk camera?!

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:05:00 pm

Suriyana (neng), Esah, Shub and me!

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:04:00 pm

me and neng

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:04:00 pm

what do u call someone who gets engaged?? not a bride right?? hmm.. whatever it is, yeah, she's the one!

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:03:00 pm

neng and the people from the guy's side

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:02:00 pm

the hantaran and the ring

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:02:00 pm

the guy's side putting on the $1.2K ring on neng's finger

beautiful DrEaMs @ 7:02:00 pm

today is simply marvelous. had a splendid day wif him.. hehehe.. started off wif him picking me up from work and then we headed off to Darul Aman for Zuhur.. the place is much nicer now.. hehehe.. first time i'm there since their renovation..

after Zuhur, went off to East Coast.. some stuff happened and i got kinda pissed off lah.. but thankfully, things got back to normal or rather, i got back to my normal self.. so, after we changed, dear led wif the warming up session.. cool.. and then, off wif the jog..

ran quite a distance lar.. and then made a U-turn back.. on the way, stopped for a while to do sit-ups.. tired sey.. my tummy all painful after dat.. dear said its a good sign lah.. hehehe.. it means i'm doing it properly..

ended the session abt 4.. then chop chop wash up and headed to bedok for a movie.. for a weekend movie, $7 considered cheap lar.. hahaha.. and esahhhh.. sorrie i watched the maid first.. sorrie sorrie.. but i wanna watch it again.. cos its SOOOOO scary.. and dun worrie.. i wont be a spoilsport k?? maybe we watch it sum time next wk?? can can?

anyway, after we bought the tix, went to Ansar for a while.. and then to eat.. i had mee hoon goreng.. niceeeeee!! i give it 4/5.. its the one at the Bedok hawker centre.. the name of the stall is Salam Muslim Restaurant or sumthing lar.. hehehe.. but sadly, there, i see the bad side of Malays.. rosak! yg togok lain, yg kecik2 jadi mat/minah lain.. tsk tsk tskkkk.. eyesore lahhhh..

ok forget i mention dat.. so then, we went up for the movie.. scary lah.. i got shocked a few times.. and a lil boy was crying halfway thru the show and the parents had to leave cause he was making such a scene..

after the movie, headed home, feeling all tired and worn off.. but fun lah.. especially dat sweetheart was wif me.. and ouh yah! sweetheart gave me 2 new sets of brooches!! yey! hehehe.. luv u dear!!

and yeah, i havent told u guys what i did for this year's anniversary right? hehehe.. kinda special lah.. 3 years together, 3 diff prezzies.. 2 of which i've given and the last prezzie remains a mystery untill next week.. first one given last Saturday, 2nd one today and the third one.. errrmm... TBA (To Be Announced) hahaha..

ok well, i wrote for him a composition.. more like a story.. of US.. from the first moment we met, what happens in between and how our bond became so strong.. ok i admit i didnt really write it in DETAILED lah.. which ones which i think are redundant i cut off.. hehehe.. and i also gave him a waist pouch.. i think this one i told u guys oready right?? well, i'm glad dear loves them both.. and he was absolutely touched by the story.. hehehe.. if he permits, i could put it down here.. *grins* ouh.. and for the gift today, well, u can see it from the pics below... hehehe.. till then, take care and enjoyz~ (but try not to believe what u read in the captions.. hehehe *winks*)

*oppssss... i forgot to mention.. the gift box look familiar right?? it was from bambang and haslina for my bdae.. sorrie guys had to use it.. contingency plan larrrr... hehehe

beautiful DrEaMs @ 8:12:00 pm

Ehhhh?? apa tueeee??